I Am My Imperfections

Been trying to update my drawing and painting skills.

So my first proper attempt.

Imperfections make me who I am. Imperfections will help me create my art.



 I Am My Imperfections

I have many hours of sketching and painting before I can call this art. In the mean while we will call them my doodles.

Lately I have been pondering life. I have not figured it out yet. Strangely I thought that by the time you reach 30 you know things, Just general things. Things like what looks good on me. What food I like. What kind of person I am.

And I read wise words of friends that speak of what they are and what they know. .. And I start panicking. I do not know who I am or what I’m good at. I know that I do not want to be who I am now.

I have these grand plans, like I have had for most of my life. And all has failed catastrophically. Or never saw the light of day. I fear failure. I fear being a disappointment to the people I love and myself.

This is what this journey is about. I rather want to fail than never have tried.

And So it begins. 2012.

Looking over the last 12 months and all the things I wanted to do, all the things I did and all the things I started. This blog transpired.

Be warned dear reader that I’m not a linguist and grammar is not one of my best traits.

But here we go.

It actually started a while before 2011. It started well into 2010. I woke up one morning and hated my job. I guess it has been building for a bit. The bullying and office politics just got to me.

So I read Eat Pray love got inspired, decided to take a journey of my own.  It might not be an epic vacation... I needed a revelation.  There were times I had moments of clarity, but no real revelation came. I struggled with bottled up emotions.

I have in the last 12 months also lost all my creative juices, which I will now attempt to recapture.

I have been contemplating a blog for some time now. So this will be my attempt on sanity.

I do not make New Year’s resolutions....but I do set myself goals, which usually takes forever to reach.

I do have things I would like to achieve, if not this year maybe in the next two.

Complete at least two more photography courses.

Blog. Often and with passion..

Start and complete a big painting.

Work on the garden in the winter. ( I tried this summer but the weeds won L )

Make friends.. I have none. .. not a good sign of what kind of person I am.. i know.

Start studying.

There is also things I would like to keep up with.

Yoga.

Pilates

Learning to cook, which you will hear about quiet often.

But first we have to reminisce about 2011. The year was off to a slow start. And I will only dwell on the good things.

(This was originally posted on 5 December 2012. )